Fuck the world that I call the internet. I am so fucking sick of all of these “celebrities”! I can’t fucking stand that YAHOO news is mostly about some fucking kardashian bitch who can’t seem to keep her legs closed much less her fucking mouth. God. I fucking hate all these cosmo-girls who think that the world revolves around hair and make-up products. I hate the fashion scene. I don’t fucking care what you wear…just wear something. I am tired of this NOT GOOD ENOUGH feeling. I fucking want to just live my fucking life without 500 different articles telling me what my man likes or what I should be doing/wearing this season. fuck it. I am done. I deleted my FB account and I am taking a hiatus from the internet. I just have to let this stupid world spin around me without me knowing who is doing what and what the populous is tuning into. fuck it!
I quit smoking. This was my first day without a cigarette and I had no fucking idea how hard this would be. I bought myself some patches today. thank fucking god. It really does help. I never thought a clear little sticker would calm my nerves. I am still feeling a bit on edge but it is easier to manage. I have been romanticizing what a cigarette would be like all day today and now that I have cracked open a bottle of wine it is going to be hard to resist my urge of going to the store and buying a pack of yellow american spirits.